November 19, 2012

November 19th 2012 1:27pm

He relished these quiet moments...
                                  ...these reflective moments

spent in such peculiar combinations of circumstances.

The way his abstracted familiarity with his own past
mixed with his relaxed appreciation of the ever-present sensation
of new possibilities within each moment.

because the moments he loved to subconsciously create for himself
weren't just
   old,     new,
                   and     infinite      
    simultaneously

they were aesthetically arresting
        and he appreciated all the irreproducible details.

Somehow he could manage, for a few seconds    
                                                                          of instant eternity,

To extract a thrilling essence from the marrow of mundanity.

seemingly creating something extraordinary
                                   out of nothing in particular.

If this was not what it felt like to be fully aware one was alive,
he could not imagine any other experience that would.

But just as unexpectedly as the feeling had arrived,
it quietly stepped out the back door
   and was gone.

And even though he was left with no special memento
        or record of his time,
he had a vague sense of certainty that
what he could not hold onto
                             would never be far off,
and even with no promise to be found again,
                    somehow, it could   never   be     lost.

August 8, 2012

Lessons from the Nothingness


I feel simultaneously like a Star and a Black Hole.
Full and Empty; Full of Emptiness. I'm not necessarily saying it to be sad about it; It just kinda is what it is, and I feel like this is the Natural State of All Things.

Contradictions, Balance, Self-Opposition, Nullification, Infinity, 'Limitless is Meaningless' is meaningful because it sets up a limit. The limitless is held and formed within the limited; Infinite is within the Finite. Limitless self contained in a limited form, in a limited world.

Paraphrasing Emerson, we animate what we can, and we see only what we animate. Nature and Books belong to the eyes that see them; these words belong to you who read them. There are always sunsets, and there is always genius; but only a few hours, so serene, that we can relish either. Direct strokes we were never given the power to make; all our blows glance, all our hits are accidental. The Indian who was laid under a curse that the wind should not blow on him, nor water flow to him, nor fire burn him, is a type of us all.

But when you compare Everything as it is to the state of Nothingness itself, you have to choose Everything every time.


July 3, 2012

Eternity Sees All

July 3rd, 2012    2:10am    Andrew's apartment, Nrth + Wstrn

So i just had this idea, that maybe somehow Gravity is an effect of perception...
like the pull of gravity is in relation to how much perception is being drawn in. like 'Black Holes' are exactly what the holes in our own eyes are, taking in all the Light. these 'Black Holes' though simply have no lid. the Eternally All-Seeing.
I have one such hole inside me as well. An ever-watchful eye, the Always Observer. the one with nothing to say. in fact i have an entire Universe inside of me. my own universe. it is the universe which makes up the fabric of this one. the Universe of Ideas and Concepts, the Memory box, the Storyteller. and all i can ever try to do is Reflect the light that I Alone see from the Universe within outwards into this Universe I Share with others. this little light of mine, im gonna let it shine, whether you're watching or not, Eternity Sees All.

11:02am
Life is like rediscovering a forgotten memory.

11:10am
"You make me want to know you."
said the seer to the seen.
Well here I go again, for the first time.

12:13
the compression of the Universe through the pinpoint of the vortex causes the combustion of consciousness.

1:00 pm
like waves of consciousness radiate and are emitted from the combustion of all the information in the universe condensed and compressed into one single point of awareness.
=> 'gravitational lens' effect around super dense objects.

6:00 am
Tree Falls in Backyard at Home.

1:10pm
One thing vs. another is becoming one thing along with another, one thing in relation to an other.

June 18, 2012

March 23, 2012

The Future Begins in The Now

for quite some time now, probably since 2009 when my father almost died, ive been living as if the world were going to end any second. every second has felt like that for me for these few years, and it forced and granted me to be able to live life in a fuller way than ive ever known. to actually do the things ive really wanted to do, and to say things to people ive always needed to say. to carry through on the things that the voice inside me tells me to do. and to become the person i've always wanted to be.

i dont believe in plans anymore. if things are meant to happen, they will happen. i dont count on any idea i have for the 'future' because i know everything is always changing. ive been living in the now.

i think just today though, i've decided i need to start thinking about there actually being a 'long' journey ahead for me still. that there is a future for me i want to invest in. and the greatest thing is now, that ive learned how to use each present moment as a seed for the future. i've been able to watch now how things i do simply because my soul tells me i need to, in the moment, dont actually end in the moment, they grow into the future, each moment is reshaping the future. and when i follow my heart in the moment, it is reshaping the future to match up with my true hearts desire.

actual change can only take place in the present, in the NOW, then it ripples out into the infinite future. you have to make your future in the now.

by following my intuition in every moment. about all the big and small things... i've learned what they mean when they say "when you are hungry, eat. when you are tired, sleep."

a plant will show you it needs water by wilting, and so you water it. in the same way, life itself will show what is needed of you in each moment, as long as you always look life in the face.

i act, the universe reacts; the universe acts, i react.
be present, be awake, pay attention, always, every moment. right now.

life is an incredible journey.

March 12, 2012

The Story of A Game

In this Moment, We are the Mortal Manifestation of 
the Eternal Essence of a Story about an ever Evolving Game 
Played for the Enjoyment of One's own Divine Universal Nature.

As A Mortal Manifestation of an Eternal Essence,
I will do what is Necessary for me to do 
as My Perception of my Circumstances, 
Internal and External, tell me.

If I do not do what is Necessary in one moment,
and the perception of a 'mistake' has been made,
However Grave,
I will Learn from the Experience
and do what is Necessary to make it 'Right' again;
if not with others, at least with
My Self.



February 17, 2012

The Limit of These Words

We all eventually need to come to the point, and actualize the moment, for our own individual selves, where we realize the limit of these very words right here to describe and 'make sense' of what is. We have to choose to accept the limit of words and move beyond them, to live in the place beyond these very words you are reading right now, beyond even the words you hear in your own head. These words, and all words. And Just Be. Know it, Love it, and Be it. Overcome your self, and arrive at this moment. 

(..."      "...)

February 12, 2012

My Life Philosophy: Have A Good Time. Period.

If what we're going for is 'Perfection' in life, than Philosophy and Science will continue to go in the way of discovering and Accepting the present as it is, as 'Perfection' already.

and if what we're going for is 'Perfection in Imperfection' than we only have but to realize that everything already is 'Perfect' the way it is.

but actually everyone is also going for something different, their own something.

and if you're not going for your own thing, than its because you're enjoying helping someone else go for what they want, which in turn makes you happy and you enjoy being happy for others, which is great! and you shouldnt be afraid or too proud to let others help you when you need it if you can see it makes them happy...

and if we want more than that, we want at the time of death, to look back on our entire life with no regrets, feeling like we've fulfilled our own potential and are ourselves fulfilled, and have gotten to see others be fulfilled as well.

The only way to ensure this is to listen to your heart and follow your spirit at all times and help others do the same, because you know your heart and spirit will also be your final judges, not just your mind.

but even 'dissatisfaction' is perfection in its own right, because that's a part of Life too.

the only thing ever to do is to just try and enjoy yourself and whatever it is you are doing as much as possible at the base level of experience. then, whatever mix of positive and negative you want to be is all up to you.

You are the one and only final judge of your own life, because you're the one living it, so just live UP to your own Standards.

and if you're not living up to your own standards yet, as long as you're really trying and making an effort, everything else can be forgiven.

and if you're not trying, then you really must just not give a fuck, so good for you anyways, if you're having a good time! ;)

but if you know youre not having a good time, and youre not trying to have a good time, and youre not willing to do what it takes to have a good time...then you must know that EVERYONE DESERVES TO HAVE A GOOD TIME!!!

and if you just think you don't deserve to have a good time, than you have to know that you're Wrong! Dead Wrong!

unless you don't think you deserve to have a good time because you are currently harming the lives of others in some way or preventing them from having a good time. in which case, STOP IT, then, realize when you hurt others you're actually hurting yourself also, feel badly, Learn from it, Apologize, Mean it, don't do it again, Forgive yourself, move on, and have a good time!

and if you already are Having a Good time, RIGHT NOW, then Keep It Going! Woot Woot!!! :D hahaha

February 10, 2012

I wouldn't even know where to begin to title this... it just is...


(recommend full-view, seems may only be available on youtube itself...)

Cross of Consciousness and Manifestation: A Quantum Philosophy
I am free, and you are free to believe what you will... I am simply presenting my own personal perspective. It may not be perfect, I know there's always more to add, but it is what it is and i ask that you accept it as it is and be respectful.

Whatever reaction you may have to this, it is ultimately between you and yourself. I wish nothing but light, love, and understanding to everyone.

I am I and You and You and I am You and You are Me. I Am because We Are.
Namaste

January 18, 2012

Mirror Making

There really is no line between that which exists and that which does not exist.

Our limited perception is what defines those things for us.

Unlimit your perception and everything becomes both real and unreal.
I exist and I do not exist.

All the previous teachings need not be undone.
But merely shown a new end to which it has been more eternally driven.

To show them that everything we have been learning so far has actually been to drive us farther than we originally thought.

Show the greedy a higher more pure greed,
Show the lustful a higher and more pure lust.
Show the wise, a more refined wisdom.

For indeed we are in the process of making ourselves more pure.

Perfecting the surface of our own mirrors.

I am a vessel through which
The one divine being
Does it’s work.

That is why I am important.
Because I am needed
By the divine being
To make it’s own existence possible.

To perceive itself
The divine being had to create
A perfect mirror.

We are that mirror.

I am here to make an existence
For myself, for the divine universe.

January 16, 2012

I Am A River

I am a river.
I am the experience of a river.

I am the water that flows,
I am the earth, the rock
and the ground which holds
and shapes it.
I am the wind which ripples.
I am the delta.
I am the ocean which gladly accepts it.
I am evaporation.
I am condensation.
I am precipitation.

I am the whole river.
I am the experience of a river.

January 13, 2012

January 12, 2012

some things i dont know why

I realize that i seem to keep most of an arms length away from people. im not sure exactly why. i think part is because i am afraid of myself. that i will unintentionally hurt those that i do let in too close. i have an immense fire that burns within me and im afraid if people got too close i will burn them just because it's the nature of the fire within me... either that or the only other way for people to get close enough to me is to  dwindle my fire down to a pile of embers though it would not have been their intention.

January 6, 2012

There should be no should's

There are... or rather, there should be no 'should's in life!
The only thing one 'should' do is find out who you are, and then Be that!
Everyone has their own unique Nature and everyone should follow that.
find out what you like and what you don't, if anything; Play around with your own thoughts and emotions because their YOURS and No One else's! Pay attention to your Senses for the same reason! if you want to really Feel and Know you're Alive, the only way you can do that is to Fully take in the immediate experience of being your Self.

January 5, 2012

Coming and Going...

Ahhh... to be NEW again

a NEW year… I just thought, what if every year was the same year, but at the end of every year we just got to start over and try the same year again, except to do it differently this time, to do it better, because we’re smarter now, a little wiser, more experience and more capable to take on what New Challenges this New Year will bring. Yet another trip around the Sun. Another chance…

When there are no expectations, the possibility of failure is removed… ;)

I think everyone could benefit from learning how to move on a little more gracefully… including my self of course. There’s so much NEW out there to be had, to do and to BE, TO BE NEW over and over, as much as I want. To be new, get old, move on, change, and become new again... limitless possibilities <3